Letter to Joshua (February 28, 2018)

At the Park, just down the road from our home, with Duncan, Bean, and me. Gretel took the picture I think. Oh how you loved spending time at the McD’s. Mrs. McD told me you could have been one of her boys...with your slightly reddish tint in your hair! And your love of scavenging coins was legendary. When you were little, you and Gretel and Duncan would scour the house and cushions for loose change. But such a generous heart too. When Candace went on her first missions trip, you hauled out your jar of cash, and insisted that she have $50. A lot of money from a small boy, for a dear family friend, who was like another sister.

Xo Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 27, 2018)

Josh,

Why am I posting all these pictures for you to see? Because you looked at me as if I was a stranger, when I hugged you last month. After not being able to see you or hug you in 5 plus years!!!!! And I thought, what have they done to you? What have they said to make you forget? Pictures are worth a thousand words. Here is one of you and Jonathan and Dad and Taylor. We were all going sailing! This was before Pastor Ron and Pastor Scott talked your dad into putting me away to break me. I took the photo. And afterwards we all had seafood in some upstairs restaurant...you and Jonathan out ate your dad that day!

Xo Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 26, 2018)

Here’s a bunch of us, with Candace and her sister Danielle. Seems we were always a full house at the table. Are you missing a tooth in this picture Josh? Or just goofing, with some food wedged in that cheeky smile?

Xo Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 25, 2018)

Josh, there you are on the big tube, with your goggles on! Gosh you loved splashing around in that pool. A water boy like you dad.

Love you,
Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 24, 2018)

Topsail vacation. We all loved it there. Fun hunting for crabs at night with flashlights, nets and buckets. Dad looks worn out here, probably because chasing you kids around on his vacation was a whole lot more taxing than chasing cows. You all were full of energy, ambition, ideas, coming and goings. All five of you.

Xo Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 23, 2018)

Josh,

Mrs. Case sent me this one too, Danny’s birthday cake, made with help from your brother Jonathan and you Josh. All silly boys.

Xo Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 22, 2018)

Josh, Christina, and cousin Jordan,

Making, eating, frosting, eating, posing, eating, sprinkling, and eating. Fun and goofy with your family.

Xo Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 21, 2018)

Dear Josh,

Here is a picture from Mrs. Case. I love it. You and Danny had so much fun together, and even now, he asks often about you and if I have heard from you. Danny even came down there to try and talk to you. A PK (pastor's kid), and growing up right next to his dad's church, he knows how wonderful our family life was. His mom told me that her kids highlight of summer days, was to come over and stay at our place. Of course we had a lot of animals, pool, gully, creek, woods and lots of food. Bit of a draw, besides our charming personalities I would say. Anyway, this a a great picture.

Xo Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 20, 2018)

So Josh, love the smile on your face. But were you following the horse or one of the sheep? I am assuming it was Ramsey the sheep. Right? Remember when cousin Brad hooked him up to a sled and pulled you guys around? I hope you are loving this trip down memory lane. I am.

Xo Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 19, 2018)

Ok Josh, see what I mean? You are not a cold-hearted kiddo. You are a loving, protective, wonderful son. And you made me laugh, and we have so many stories of your fun ways. Putting Christina down the furnace grate with a rope! Ha, that was hysterical. Shooting out the little window panes of glass in our old barn with your slingshot...You were only four yrs old! Good shot, my little boy was. Always holding my hand so I’d not slip on the ice...cause of my bum hip. Sweetheart. What about the rooster story! Oh, that was FUNNY! And the time Candace babysat you little kids, and you had the Old Amos rescue at the gully with the farm truck. Dad and I shook our heads at you kids when we got back from the wedding we were at.

You are so wonderful Joshua, never forget it.
Xo Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 18, 2018)

Hey Josh,

Remember the fun you had with Joel and Ruthie? Such happy kids. And I loved it when you were all happy together.

Xo Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 17, 2018)

Dear Josh,

Your birthday, a swim party, friends, family (dad is behind you with the Hand! Lol), and joy.

Love you lots,
Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 16, 2018)

Dear Josh,

Here you are playing cards with Grampa Beck. What a handsome boy! I am so proud of you.

Xo, Mom

Letter to Joshua (February 15, 2018)


Dear Joshua,

     While looking through the albums, I found so many pictures of you and me, so I am going to post a few for you. I have heard Olivia is not well, and you both are struggling. I love you. What can I do to help? Please tell Olivia we love her. I am deeply saddened that her parents Randy and Lynn Carr have aided Pastor Scott in hiding you from us. They were our neighbors and friends, and I would never have thought they would try to keep our son from us. It's horrible. It was obvious when I saw you and hugged you, for those 5 minutes, that they have not kept the love for your mom and dad alive, you looked at me as if I were a stranger. It broke my heart, broke Denise's heart who saw it, and saddened your little nephew Noah. He hugged your leg, and you did not even hug him back, or say a word to him. Oh, Josh, that is not who you were. Come alive again, and throw off the coldness. You are loved and you were always so loving and protective of your mama.

God bless you, my dear son.
Mom

Letter to My Children (February 14, 2018)


Dear Jonathan, Sarah, Josh, and Christina,

     Happy Valentines Day, my beloved children. Dad gave me roses yesterday. So much beauty in flowers. Looked through a bunch of our albums yesterday, finding some pictures of your dear old friend Liz, that I wanted to send her. So much beauty in our family albums! Documented by hundreds (literally!) of old photos. The wonderful family we had, fun, work, laughter, work...lol. Farm & family life. Look behind these flowers, do you see Christina's little tea set (oh the fun dress up tea parties you had!)? Do you see my grandmothers Christmas cactus? As a little girl, it was in the upstairs window at Gramma Almeter's. Then my mom took it, the move apparently upset it, and we had a Duce of a time getting it to bloom. However, the week after mom died, it bloomed all over!
     See the wood outside? Yup, your mom still loves a cozy fire, recall when your Grampa Beck put one in for us at the old yellow house? We loved putting our feet up on the hearth and talking, snuggling by the fire. So you are very fortunate and blessed kids. You were given so much. Don’t throw us away anymore. It's wrong. It has hurt so many of us. Come back to us; we love you always and forever.

Xo, Your own Mom