Letter to My Children (December 24, 2013)

Dear Jonathan, Sarah, Joshua and Christina,

      It's is the day before Christmas.  I have been awake since 3am, up reading my bible, thinking and praying our family will be together again.  Please come home for Christmas. Or if you cannot travel, call and we will come to you. Only let us be together.  Please, please come home.
      Sometimes it seems I cannot keep living with such pain in my heart. I know your father and sister feel it too. I love you all so much, and there is no anger or condemning here. Just sadness and longing to have you close again. To be able to speak with you, hear how you are, hear your voices, see you. No matter what you have done, no matter what you have become....come home.

Love your own mom.

Letter to My Children (December 20, 2013)

Dear Jonathan, Sarah, Joshua and Christina,

     I miss you. We miss you. Every minute of every day. We talk about you, so many of us. Your relatives, old and new friends ask about you when visiting, wanting to know if you have contacted me yet. Prayers all the time, from so many people you know and don't know, asking God to bring you home to us. Not that you have to leave VA, but just be a part of our lives again. How can one part of us be cut off, and we all don't ache?
     When I asked George and Sarah Bright years ago, about a rumor that Pastor Scott was destroying families, they responded so calmly that evil men were waxing worse, and the love of many was waxing cold. People were leaving their families and walking away from God. That was false. People were being divided, slandered, put away, thrown into the street, put in motels, prevented from going to church (anywhere), property confiscated by church members, silenced. All at Pastor Scott's direction.
     This is beyond the scope of my understanding. It is purely malicious evil. It has taken you 4 beautiful children and broken your hearts thinking you have had to put away your own parents and sister to love God adequately. It has broken my heart, dads, Gretel's. But we continue to hope, and love you, and pray. That soon you will call or even better, come. One night I woke up hearing Jonathan calling out 'Mom, Mom, I'm here...' I got out of bed and went looking for him in the house. It was so real.
     When I came down last week, and picked up dads things for winter, I was shocked to hear Courtney saying to me that I had abandoned you all. I told her the truth. Why haven't you? Why are you hiding what you did to me that day? Maybe Pastor Ron told you it will cause confusion, like he told me and dad. Well, that's because it is confusing, and confusion is not from God.
     When I stopped at your homes and knocked, Sarah you pulled the blinds shut. I left Penny's gift from Noah on your door handle and kissed your door. Asking God to bless and protect you all. And then at Jonathan's home, when I saw him through the window he shook his head no to me, and walked back upstairs. I cried. And kissed his window over and over, telling the glass how much I love him, asking God to bless my sweet son and family. Jonathan I ached to hold you close.

I called you to tell you I was there and want to see you all. Nothing. God was there for me.

Love your own mom

Letter to Pastor Scott (November 19, 2013)

Dear Pastor Scott,

     I have not wanted to write you until today. I have at times wanted to speak with you. But today I heard you are tired.
     I am sorry you are not well. Before you go on your rest, would you please allow my children to see and talk with me. Would you please restore our broken relationship. You know it was based on falsehoods that you put me away. And I know it. There is no hidden sin. I am who I have always been. And I weep every day for my children, Jonathan, Sarah, Joshua, and Christina. As well as my sweet little grandchildren PennyRose, and Jackson. When I get their photo's I touch their little faces and cry, and tell them how much I love them, even without ever seeing them in person.
     I love my family Pastor Scott. I love my husband who did your bidding, even when he knew it was wrong. God loves me, how can I not love those who hurt me.
     And God loves you, sir. I know he does. Today, more than ever. Yes you have done bad things. And you will need to turn from the wicked deeds, and restore what you have taken away. But the minute you ask Jesus to forgive you, you are forgiven.
     But you know this. Last summer when I was sitting on Josh's door jamb trying to hug him before he drove off, and tell him how much I love him. He was trying to push me out onto the pavement. I was crying, saying 'Son, Pastor Scott would be appalled to see how you are treating your own mother!' As I walked away, George Shihadah was standing on the lawn watching. He had tears in his eyes. I said to him then, that I would respect any man who can admit he has made a wrong judgment. I would tell my children to honor any man, who has the integrity to right a wrong he did. I asked George to tell you that. And I mean it still.
     Pastor Scott, God loves you, please do the hardest thing you will maybe ever have to do in your life. Please make all the wrongs you have done--right. By God's grace you can do the impossible. You can go to the ones you have taken children from and restore their children, you can go to husbands and restore their wives. You can go to your own, and restore what has been taken. As you do, I know God's peace will flood your heart. And love, God's love, will take the sting out of shame.
      God needs broken men, sir. Not 'powerful, polarizing, pastors'. He needs men who are nothing, but have the Son of God--Him--He is everything.

Sincerely, Mrs. Molly Fitch

P.S. Here is a song I thought would be an encouragement to you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auEw_Ui71oc

Letter from Ellen (November 16, 2013)

Dear Calvary Temple,

      A little more than 5 years ago my family and I decided to leave Calvary Temple. During our 30 years at Calvary we had experienced many trials and many blessings so the decision to leave was a very difficult and painful one; a decision we wrestled with for many months and even years. The scripture that often sustained me during this time was "Then Peter and the other apostles answered and said, 'We ought to obey God rather than men.'"
     During these months and years there were many red flags that we pushed aside or ignored. One was the warning that came from a former member I had known well and was respected in CT until he and his family left. He called to tell us that he believed Calvary Temple, after some legal changes, was now legally and financially under the  control of Pastor Scott. This should have caused me concern because we had been told otherwise by Pastor Scott. Another red flag came in the form of our own observations of the treatment given to people who had left CT. The offending individual or family was ALWAYS portrayed as rebellious, confused or lost. It seemed unlikely to me that every single one of them was now in complete rebellion to God only because they had left CT. Many of these people had been very well thought of just days or weeks prior to their leaving and now were being called reprobate, residue (as Pastor Scott said "we have filled a lot of the local churches with our residue"), backsliders, unsaved, lost, confused, etc. Their families were being divided and even destroyed. I heard Pastor Gardner say "EVERY one who has left Calvary Temple is not serving God."  Many people I had known and trusted were leaving CT and I finally had to ask myself why.
     One of the most disturbing events occurred when Pastor Scott married Greer just 3 weeks after Mrs Scott's death. He stated from the pulpit that God had spoken to him in prayer one night shortly AFTER her death that he was to marry Greer."Out of the clear, like a lightning bolt Thursday, a few days ago, God spoke to me and He pointed out in our midst one of the virgins among us that's to become my wife." And yet a friend in leadership told me that Pastor Scott had spoken of marrying Greer the week before Mrs. Scott's death.  I believed he had mislead the congregation.  In the teaching entitled "Ruth" (http://www.calvarytempleva.org/Teaching/Details/Ruth-200209)Pastor Scott referred to himself as the High Priest. "A very interesting thing that was upon the high priest, however, he couldn't mourn anyone. He wasn't allowed, as you read this, to mourn mother, father, children, and as you read into this, even, the implication being, the wife." and "He talks about the high priest and He says if you've lost a wife, you take a wife. It has to be one that's a virgin, it has to be one that's out of your midst." I remember feeling absolutely stunned that he was calling himself the High Priest. Scripture is clear as to who our High Priest is. (Hebrews 4: 14-16). I believed he was placing himself equal to the sinless Son of God. There were many explanations as to why he referred to himself this way ("he chose to identify with the priesthood, he didn't mean it that way, etc"). In the Ruth teaching Pastor Scott then described his marriage proposal (via his daughter) to Greer and again, I was very upset. I felt Greer was possibly coerced into agreeing to the marriage by such emotionally loaded statements such as "ALL THE PASTORS, there's been discussion; ALL THE BIBLICAL PRINCIPLES have been gone over, everyone's at peace..." and "I just encourage you that between myself and the pastors, we have thoroughly covered the scriptures to make sure that every things that's done is according to the Word of God'. Several of us wondered how a  young girl desiring to please God and her pastor could say no to that? Whether or not it was right or wrong for Pastor Scott to marry a young girl, the method he used to marry her seemed to me and others to be manipulation.
     In January 08 Pastor Scott began a series of teachings on the authority of the church leadership (http://www.calvarytempleva.org/Teaching/Details/Knowing-Gods-Voice-Doing-Gods-Will-200801) It was then I knew I could no longer turn a blind eye to the misinterpretation and misapplication of scripture. I felt as though there began to be more of an open shift in dependence on hearing from God to obeying leadership. He stressed that "God PREDOMINANTLY speaks to men that are placed by Him in roles of leadership" He stated "leadership hears the Word of God from a different perspective and on a different level than you hear it". I could no longer continue in and under a ministry that set themselves in this position. I know with all assurance that God leads us and guides us through the Holy Spirit and His Word. I know that leadership is there to counsel, help, encourage and lead by example, but NEVER to take the place of His leading. I know that even if I a make a mistake, or am wrong about something, God will get me back on track.
     One of the scriptures frequently quoted by Pastor Scott regarding the authority of the pastors in leading the flock is from Psalm 77:20. (You led your people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron.) But I had not heard him speak of the scripture in Jer. 31 that states "it will not be like the covenant I made with their ancestors when I took them by the hand to lead them out of Egypt" nor the New Testament verse from Hebrews that confirms this Messianic prophecy. A very complete biblical study of Pastoral Authority can be found here: http://againstcalvarytemple.com. As I studied the scripture and other biblical writings on church authority, I felt that Pastor Scott was in doctrinal error.
     Pastor Scott has said that often people don't leave Calvary Temple until they are personally affected and I think there is truth to that. It took a very personal event to force us out the door. It was "diploma night", the night Pastor Scott stripped our son (and others) of his diploma, awards, and godly reputation. It began with Pastor Scott compiling a list of young people that he and others in leadership considered unfit to represent Calvary Temple and Discipleship Training. They were given the opportunity to repent. Some did in addition to many others that were not on the list. It seemed to me and others that Greer and Kimberly were in disagreement with the "repentance" of several of the young people and began to whisper to Pastor Scott. Five of the young people were called back to recover their diplomas and the congregation was told that these five were not on the list of those needing to repent. He stated that night and again in a subsequent service that the rest who had turned in their diplomas needed to repent and should be thought of leaven and even wolves among the congregation. Our son had turned in his diploma and was included in this group. We were heartbroken and deeply dismayed that our son was thought of in this way and that the congregation was now warned to beware of him. We were in disbelief that if our son was considered not fit to represent CT, then why had we never been spoken to concerning him? After much perseverance, we learned from one of the pastors that our son was NOT on the list. Pastor Scott admitted privately that our son was considered a godly young man. We requested that the congregation be informed of this but were told "no". We were told to stop "criticizing" him just because a "mistake" had been made. From that moment on I knew I had to leave Calvary Temple no matter what the cost.
     Thus began a very difficult time for me and my family. We left knowing we could lose every relationship we held dear. And we did. (The ironic thing is many of these friends we have lost would themselves like to leave Calvary Temple but they know the cost could be great.) Not only is it devastating to lose friends and even family, it I can also be difficult to adjust to life outside of Calvary Temple. Yes, my church life is now very different from the one I had in CT. I do not attend "church" nearly as often as I once did. Sometimes I only attend one or two actual services each week. But I am deeply involved with the Body of Christ. I have a group of many close friends that among us we attend 7 different churches. In addition, I am free to minister on a regular basis to a few people that are not yet believers. I spend a great deal of time in the care of a family member. I meet regularly with friends to lift up our loved ones in prayer. My pastor is a godly example to me and he and his wife are friends I can count on. I go to him for counsel but in the end he encourages me to hear from God on my own. He recognizes that he is a servant to the Body of Christ but we must each one follow the leading of the Holy Spirit in our lives. Our God is faithful to lead and guide each one of us. I am able to seek God on a daily basis and go wherever He leads me.
     I have experienced great trials in my life but "it is well with my soul". Should persecution ever come to such a degree that we must all flee, I know I am forging a relationship with God that can sustain me in perhaps very difficult and solitary times. We may not always have our "church" to depend on but we always have our God.

My heart's desire in writing this is to speak the truth in love to my brothers and sisters.

Ellen Kusar

Letter to My Children (November 15, 2013)

My own dearest Children,

     Lately I have been thinking of when we are with the Lord, and all tears are wiped away.  And the wonderful gift it is to know that He has offered us free and full forgiveness of sins through Jesus Christ.   That is what I long for you to really know about our God.  Along with that new heart and life, he gives us courage to own up to things we would rather not.  Like me writing these letters publicly.  I hate it.  All I want is to be able to write you and speak to you as we always have, not through the filter of the pastors at Calvary telling you what they want you to know.
     I was very naïve.  Because of the endorsement of good men I respected here in NY, I never checked into the character and background of the pastors down there.  Now the men here in NY are so very sorry that they ever took me to Calvary Temple in VA.  And I am so very sorry that due to my influence our sweet Candace, Joelle, and Chris are entangled in the church there, along with you.  Many folks here have told me that due to my good reputation, they silenced their own doubts and trusted I was correct.
      I was not correct.  I blindly believed these were men of integrity.  They are not.  I recall when you, Sarah, told me that Candace was about to be marked and put out.  I had just been brought home from being put away 93 days and told to be quiet by Pastor Ron, but I asked you in surprise WHY?  Because she has been so emotional.  But what about her new baby?  Oh, Joey decided to give her another chance.  I was so scared. Because it was not right.  But if I spoke up, would I lose my own babies again?
      Dad told me last night, that Pastor Ron never told him about all the messages I sent.  Pastor Ron called randomly, every 10 days or so.  To see how I was doing spiritually.  If I was ready to be brought home.  One day he told me that they were ready to bring me home, but Tom had had a dream that I came home and was not changed.  So in light of that, although not prone to rely on dreams, they were going to keep me out a little bit longer.  I cried.
     I still cry.  Because maybe if I had not obeyed Dad, Pastor Ron and Pastor Scott, I would have been able to get you all out right away.  But I was so terrified that maybe they were right, maybe I was not pleasing to God. Maybe he was chastening me that way because that's what it would take to make me holy.
     How did I get so far away from the simple Gospel presented by Jesus, I AM the way and the truth and the life, and no man comes unto the Father but by Me......Jesus is the only one holy, and if I believe in Him, he forgives all my sins, and I stand complete in Him.....alone.

Waiting with open arms,
Your loving mom

Letter to My Children (November 5, 2013)

Dear Children,

     Yesterday was your little nephew's birthday. He turned 3. So far in his little life you were only there for his birth. You allowed your father to put Noah and Gretel away while I was put away in a motel, so you refused to celebrate his 1st birthday, and his 2nd, and now his 3rd. But we remember you, every day. Gramma told little Noah the story of his birth-day. And we looked at all the pictures. And he asked who the people were- Uncle Jonathan, Aunt Sarah, Uncle Josh, Aunt Christina.
     We cried on his birthday, your sister made pumpkin pie for his birthday cake, telling Noah it is 'your Uncle Josh's favorite!' Your cousins and aunt came over to unwrap gifts, we talked of you all, we missed you all, and hope against hope you would call. Aunt Jackie and I took a long walk after, and reminisced about raising you kids. You are ours, from God. We will never let you go.
      I pray God will bless and protect each one of you, Noah and I pray this every morning and every night, naming each one and little PennyRose and little Jackson and soon-to-arrive baby. Hugs and kisses always and forever, Your mom

Letter From Patty to Family and Friends (October 28, 2013)

Dear Calvary Temple,

      I am writing this letter to my friends and family of Calvary Temple for the purpose of bringing into the light the "other side of the matter". Proverbs 18:15 “An intelligent heart acquires knowledge, and the ear of the wise seeks knowledge.” When I first began to attend Calvary Temple, I was a new believer and had not attended any other church. I moved from Connecticut to attend CT and remained almost 25 years. It has now been five years since we left CT, however, our son Joey remains. We were not allowed to attend Joey and Candace’s wedding nor have we met our first grandchild Cali. This has broken our hearts and I believe it has broken the heart of God.
      In the months leading up to the time I left CT, God began to challenge me concerning my growth in the Lord. I knew I was doing the right things such as going to services, prayer, and being involved in ministry, but I felt further from God than when I had first entered Calvary Temple. I began to go before the Lord with my desire to hear from Him and Him alone. I prayed specifically that I would only hear the Voice of the Lord and not the voice of Pastor Scott or any other man. One night, until four in the morning, I was in agony for myself and my family. After these many hours of prayer, I heard from God clearly. He spoke three things to me that I then shared in a meeting with Pastor Scott.
They are as follows:

1. There is no respect at Calvary Temple for one another's personal relationship with Jesus Christ.
2. They have replaced the Holy Spirit with a man.
3. Calvary Temple is a man-centered church, not Christ-centered.

     Several events also troubled me. One morning I was having breakfast with Michelle Freeman. Bea Robinette observed us and reported this to Danny Johnson. At our next home group meeting, Danny rebuked me for speaking with Michelle Freeman. My response to Danny was that as a 47 year old woman, I could decide for myself if I should or should not have breakfast with someone. I let Danny know that I was not afraid of being misled or influenced by Michelle. I had confidence that God could speak to me.
     After this, I started to study the scriptures concerning some of the things I was hearing from Pastor Scott. Also, our deacon was telling us things we needed to do in the disciplining of our children and the running of our household that we knew were Ron’s [my husband] authority. I began to contact other ministries such as Charles Stanley, David Wilkerson, and Focus on the Family. I talked with (ten of them) and several told me to take my family out of Calvary Temple immediately. One of them referred me to a website about abusive and cultish churches. (such as http://www.wickedshepherds.com/aberrationsinanabusivechurch.html)
     Another situation was the "diploma night". (The night Pastor Scott told the deacons to decide which of the young people in their groups should be labeled wolves and leaven). I felt spiritually and physically ill because I did not think this event was of God. Scripturally, we only see Jesus as the One who can separate the sheep and the goats. (Matthew 25:31-46) I also knew that if Pastor Scott was truly hearing from God, he did not need Greer and Kimberly whispering in his ear. If this was of God, and He was prompting some of the young people to repent, (and some of them needed to repent) then why did Pastor Scott call them to come get their diplomas back again? I really believed the entire evening was a misuse of Pastor Scott's pastoral authority. In a meeting with Pastor Scott in which we discussed the diploma night and other issues, Pastor Scott called Ron and I "pains in the neck" 5 separate times. I did not understand why he would call us that when we were genuinely trying to get our questions answered. But at that point, I knew that I could no longer remain in a ministry that would respond to me in this way. We shook hands and as I left, I knew I would not come back.
     Upon our leaving, Peter and Philip [two of our sons], left with us. We began to attend Cornerstone Chapel (and we have been attending and serving there ever since). Steve [our son] stayed at Calvary. Pastor Jeff called the high school to a meeting and instructed them to no longer talk with the Simoneau boys as they were not Christians. Joey was told that if Ron and I would sign over custody of Peter and Philip to him, then they could attend school at CT. Ron and I refused, saying that God had given our children to us and we were responsible for nurturing and admonishing them in the Lord. Shortly thereafter, Danny Johnson told Stephen that his father no longer had spiritual oversight over him. Steve disagreed and left.
     I believe the destruction of marriages and families has been based on a few scriptures that have been taken out of context. I have written this to ask my brothers and sisters in Christ to study the scriptures to see if what they are being taught is what Jesus actually taught and walked out.

1 John 2:6 “Those who say they live in God should live their lives as Jesus did.”

     Though we have experienced trials in these past 5 years, we have also known God's unending mercy, patience, healing and forgiveness. We have especially seen God's grace at work in our boys as they continue to draw closer to Him. We are persevering in prayer to trust that our Heavenly Father will complete the good work that He has begun in each one of us.

Letter to My Children (October 22, 2013)

Dear Jonathan, Sarah, Joshua and Christina,

     Was going through photo's today, looking for some to make a card
for Jordan in Afghanistan.  So many good memories.  Our love for each
other so apparent in the photo's.  It is time to come home children.
We love you all, bring your babies, and come home.  We will comfort you
and walk through the pain of making wrongs right together.
      No more pretending that this is Christlikeness to destroy your family.
Joshua bring your wife home, bring our little Bean home, Jonathan bring
your wife and our little Jackson home.  Sarah bring your husband and our little
PennyRose and the newest to come baby - home.  We love you, if you need
us to come to you we will.  I was there all last year, even when locked out of our
house, even when you threatened to call the police if I kept waiting at your door to
see you, even when you told me to go away, when you didn't answer the phone,
didn't call on our birthday or Christmas, didn't answer our calls on your birthdays,
didn't receive our gifts.  Also came your NY family and friends, aunts and uncles,
cousins, old CCA friends, old pastors and their wives, missionary friends....we have
all tried and tried to reach you, to talk, to hug you, to reason with you.  And even
though your response has been stony silence, we will keep on reaching out anyway we can.
With all the love and forgiveness that Christ has given us.

Your own mom

Letter to My Children (October 10, 2013)

My dear children,

     Every morning for these past 2 years, I wake with prayers for you on my heart.  This morning, Noah and I are still coughing, and sitting talking about Jesus.  When suddenly recalled the name of a song which was saved on my computer in Virginia, a song loved since first hearing it as a teenager just born again. Baruch Adonai, and Baruch Ha Ba  B'shem Adonai. So we found it on youtube and began to sing along.  Noah was dancing, and I thought how soon God will wipe away all our tears. All the pain and sorrow will be forgotten, all the evil will be vanquished, He will take us to himself.
      We have received pictures from people at Calvary of Joshua's wedding.  It is hard for us to speak of it, the ache is tremendous. Lots of tears, and silence.  Yesterday someone mentioned how they had received a note from a local pastor, who hadn't slept in 24 hours, but had spent it in prayer for our family. The tears of folks who hear of what you are doing to your family, are precious. There are no words to say, no accusations, or condemnation, because it is so obviously the devil who steals, kills, and destroys.
     I love you, I forgive you.  No matter what you have done, no matter what you have become-come home.  The blood of Christ is sufficient for all our sins.  Run to him, he will not turn you away.  His grace and mercy and love is able to heal the deepest hurts.

Love and hugs always,

Your own mom, and your little nephew Noah

Letter to My Children (September 19, 2013)

Dear dear children,

     I love and weep each morning for you to return.  My heart is toward you, please turn your hearts toward your mom and dad and sister and nephew and all our relatives and friends again.  We hide nothing, we are walking in the light.  We speak, please listen.  If you are shutting out our voices, that is not the way of truth, light, the Way of God.  He hides nothing but instead reveals openly for the whole world to see.  He restores, and causes men to make restitution, and straightens things that are lame or crooked.  He exposes corruption, he exposes lies, he exposes darkness with the Light and the Truth.  You do not need to be afraid of being drawn away or enticed by someone else, only by the sin in our own hearts are we enticed.  I am not afraid of you or of Pastor Scott, I would be so glad to come down right away and see you all and talk to anyone you like.  Only let us be reconciled that the Gospel be not evil spoken of any longer in our lives. 
     Right now, people even Pastors have shared that our situation so tarnishes the gospel and the ministry of pastors to shepherd.  Because it causes folks not to trust pastors, and to cause the way of Truth to be evil spoken of.  The prayer below in the devotional, is one I have prayed often, that your hearts would be turned toward us, and ours to you.  That God may be glorified.
Love and hugs and tears always,

your mom

Letter to My Children (September 12, 2013)

Dearest children,

     Pray often for you to be kept in the midst of this awful storm, from evil.  That your conciences will not be defiled.  I love and pray for you all daily, and for myself to not give up, not grow weary in well doing, but to keep on trusting God to right the wrongs.  Jesus is coming so soon, and he loves you so much.  Lets not break his heart any longer by turning a deaf ear to the cries of your mom, dad, sister, nephew, aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousins, and dear old friends.  Hugs and kisses and tears always,


Letter to Sarah (August 31, 2013)

     .....please come home.  Bring your family, bring my children and come home.  I love you, my heart is broken, I would do anything to have you here.  Tell me what you want and I will do it.  But don't ask me to call evil good, or to call good evil.  
     Jac called and told me about your gift..  I cried.  That letter and pictures -you should be writing to your mom and dad and that gift should be to your sister and her husband.  Jac knows it, she cried when you sent it.  She told me how wrong it is, and no one thinks what you have done is godly. Everybody at CCA knows about what you are doing, Pastor Stroud gave a deposition to the lawyer and guardian in NY.  You cannot find a christian in NY who thinks this is godly.  You cannot find a non-christian who thinks this is good.  
      Please forgive me for trusting  men.  Two pastors have apologized for promoting Pastor Scott's ministry, and although they do not want me to mention their names anymore they are praying and hope you come out soon.  They just do not want the ire they receive from Calvary Temple, but to live their lives peacefully.  Why do you persecute the people Jesus bled an died for?  Why do you slander and defame your sisters and brothers in Christ?  I pray everyday for the pastors that God will give them the strength to make all the wrongs right.  To ask forgiveness to restore what has been taken away, to humble themselves before the Lord's return and not abuse the flock of God anymore.
     It is the truth. No matter what pressures to 'not offend', I am telling you the truth.  I am one of God's little chidren, and so are my children.  And anyone that causes us to stumble, the Scripture says it would be better for a millstone to be put around their neck and cast into the sea.  God
will fight for us.  
     I love you my dear sweet Sarah.  I see your photos online and I weep.  Everyday I look at your pictures, I look at pictures of Josh and Bean-the one Renee just sent made me cry.  She is so beautiful, and she looks so sad for not having her parents that would do anything for her-people from all over send me the photos I have no access to.  The photos of MY OWN CHILDREN and grandchildren.
     Only God can make such a horrible situation right.  I do not know what to do.  How could my own sweet babies do this?  But I love and forgive you, God will wipe aaway our tears soon.  In prayers often, God encourages me that we will soon be together again!  And I cannot wait for 
that day.

Love hugs and kisses and lots of tears

Letter to My Children (July 16, 2013)

Jonathan, Sarah, Joshua, and Christina,

     I just got back from kissing and praying with Jordan your cousin.  He will be deploying in a few days to Afganistan, along with your brother-in-law Kyle whom you don't seem to even care about.  Your actions are breaking the hearts of your family.  Jordan is heading to war, without the love and care and support of his cousins that he has always loved, and with you Jonathan, respected.  You are sowing confusion among the hearts and minds of dozens of people, pastors have come to me sharing the insidiousness of this great misdeed, christians destroying christians and unbelievers. 
One pastor recently said this is like the catholics in the inquistion.  All I know is PLEASE I BEG YOU to talk with us, love us again, we love and weep for you each and every day.  My life is shattered.  Your dad is shattered, lies have caused this, but what the pastors have done to take advantage of dad's unsound mind is even more wrong. 
     My life is now a recluse, which is fine, I pray and take care of your father.  Once Pastor Scott told me, "You can't love Tom enough to make him obey." That is true, the implication was then I should stop loving him, as you have to me and all our family and friends.  But God doesn't stop loving us
when we disobey him.  Your dad has done a great wrong, but he is worthy to be loved and cared for. All men are.  The pastors have done a great wrong, but they deserve to be forgiven as well.   God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son...  Love gives and gives and never stops giving.  Love is willing to be taken advantage of, willing to be slandered, willing to keep on loving the unlovely. Love triumphs in the end.  Cutting off, putting away, slandering, stopping the ears from the piteous cries of people, is hatred not love.  It's not rocket science.  You know love by the deeds.  Deeds that do not match loving words cause confusion.  Like a man who beats his wife and tells her he loves her-it is abuse not love.  What you are doing is abuse.
      The wisdom of God is first pure (clear, easy to see through), peaceable, gentle (like a momma with her baby), easy to be entreated (easy to understand). This wisdom-these deeds of putting people away, cutting off, not answering phone or email or text, telling my little girl to run away, telling dad to  divorce your mom because she questioned Pastor Ron when he said things that were not Truth. These deeds are like the pharisees of old.  Jesus hated the deeds of those men, warned his disciples to not do them, said be imitators of God as dear children.  
      Remember my favorite verse Micah 6:8 What does the Lord require of you O man, but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God.
     Jesus is at the door, what will you say to him when he asks you why have you done this great evil, 'My pastor said so?'  We all must give an account for our own actions and words, maybe he will say 'Didn't I give you my Holy Spirit to lead you into all truth?'  Why then didn't you listen to Him?  Paul said If we or an angel from heaven bring any other doctrine, let him be accursed....the definition of Truth and Love is Jesus.  READ the gospels, where does Jesus ever do these deeds?  To Peter? To Thomas? To the ones who deserted him?  To the ones who tried to keep little children from him?  To his mother and family members who thought he was out of his mind because he was upsetting the religious world of his day?
     Did Jesus obey the religious rulers when he healed on the Sabbath?  Did he obey when he and the disciples ate grain on the Sabbath?  Who did Jesus rebuke for laying heavy burdens on the people?  I'm sure the pastors love God, but we all make mistakes, no pastor is perfect.  Come let us reason together says the Lord.  Now the Lord is perfect, yet he is willing to reason with sinful man.....MERCY triumphs over judgement.
      No matter what you do to us, we....I....will keep reaching out, loving you, calling, texting, writing, sending gifts, and even coming down to see you when I know you will not see me, and will call the police if I linger at your doors too long.  But I love you, and I long for you, and I know this breaks our Lord Jesus' heart. I have to- otherwise people up here may become bitter.  But when they see me continue to reach out toward you, it points them back to the love of Christ for the world.  He never stops loving and reaching out, so I have to follow his example.

God bless you my dear sweet children.

Your own mother